Using Drugs and Alcohol stopped the Flow of Feelings and Stifled Clear Thinking.
In my early Recovery, Floods of Thoughts and Feelings almost swept me away. I wasn't used to thinking and feeling. My habits of using precluded thinking and feeling. Thoughts and Feelings might get in the way of Using. And life simply didn't seem worth living without my substances (Like a bad marriage: "Can't live with 'em. Can't live without 'em.")
Recovery is the Good Life, Real and Full and Fulfilling.
Slowly and surely, I would learn to let thinking and feeling back into my life.
Recovery is that different world I did not know I did not want to live without.
I'm really not prescribing anything here, but I do know that my 30-year prescription of self-medication was not working and frankly, rarely, if ever, did.
Discover your own path. Create it as you progress. You will surely learn that Recovery is as Progressive as the Behaviors that it will be replacing.
We are here to help each other come out of those dark and deadly days.
Allow yourself to think and feel. It's free and we will become freer each passing day.
I know this entire post is more sugar-coated than most I've written.
Sometimes I allow myself the occasional sweet thought.
RECOVERY IS EARNED (I knew the sugar-coating couldn't last forever!).
"Work it; you're worth it" is an old Truism in the Rooms of Recovery. Like a shiny penny, an occasional repolishing seems in order.
Enjoy this new life as we carry it forward.
Immerse yourself in my Descent into Addiction and eventual Recovery in my Autobiographical Fiction, ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal