31 May 2021

TODAY Marks My 17th Year of Continuous Sobriety

 


Neither Bragging Nor Complaining, Just a Simple Statement of Fact.

The Point is to Let People Who Are Newly Clean & Sober Know that RECOVERY is POSSIBLE, DOABLE & IRREPLACEABLE. May They, Too, Learn to Treasure Their Moment, This Moment, Every Moment, Clean & Sober.
As a Woman in my Recovery Group repeatedly states, "Your Life May Not Get Better, But You Will Get Better" as you accrue more time in Recovery.
On my 14th Anniversary, I Chaired a Recovery Meeting & was so Excited I Totally Botched Up a Favorite Quote from my book (Un-Botched here, lol):

"NOTHING MATTERS MORE THAN THAT WE REMAIN SOBER BECAUSE WHEN WE REMAIN SOBER EVERYTHING MATTERS MORE." 

I certainly thought I would die before I reached 40 after so many hospitalizations and other Alcohol-Related Near-Death Experiences.
I am 17 Years Sober this Day and I Turn 71 Years Old this Year to boot. That's Two Prime Numbers (17 & 71)!

THAT MAKES ME A 17 YEAR OLD TEENAGER IN THE PRIME OF MY LIFE! 

Neither Bragging Nor Complaining, Just a Simple Statement of Fact.
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22 May 2021

16 of 180 QUOTES by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous in ALL DRINKING ASIDE (Chapters 61 - 70, Part Seven of Nine)

Chapter 61

"It is well to remember that the entire population of the universe, with one trifling exception, is composed of others." - Andrew J. Holmes

*****

I actually feel less isolated upon reading this Quote by Andrew J. Holmes. We're all in this same boat, so it reminds me of the importance of connecting with others on our various journeys. It returns me to humility, a place of comfortable vulnerability and realistic self-worth. I could go on and on but that would contradict my humble intent (pause). 

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Andrew J. Holmes (pictured) opens Chapter 61 [Depression And Anxiety (Dissolve)]of All Drinking Aside.

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"Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler." - Albert Einstein

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A KISS GOOD-BYE:

This Einstein quote is a personal favorite. In an attempt to seek immediate solutions, there is a tendency by many to settle for any Over-Simplification that simply sounds good. "Don't Drink & Go to Meetings" may sound like an effective Prescription, but it doesn't invite depth and further exploration and questioning. To me, Addiction is Irreducibly Complex and every book I read, every person I meet. both broaden and deepen my understanding, lending nuance and returning gratitude. 

A simple understanding may sometimes only be arrived at down a complex road with many twists and turns. Epiphanies may appear simple and instantaneous, but are often preceded by much experience and forethought.

The Simple is Elegant when it has been stripped of the unnecessary and it is allowed to display its true depth. 

For me, K.I.S.S. (Keep It Simple Stupid) is often a Kiss Goodbye.

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This Quote by Albert Einstein (pictured) closes Chapter 61 [Depression And Anxiety (Dissolve)]of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 62 A Pack Of Loners, Alone

"They say that God is everywhere, and yet we always think of Him as somewhat of a recluse.": - Emily Dickenson

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WE ARE ZEBRAS OF EVERY STRIPE:

Seekers most seek Solitude and it is in this Quiet Place where thoughts of God or any other Unified Theory take hold before returning to the Greater Human Field found outwardly. We cannot stay long in this Quiet Place or we would die of hunger and thirst. Most Seekers don't want to stay there anyway. It is in this Quiet Place where some Unquantifiable Battery is recharged before returning to Human Activities.

At times I, too, have been a momentary recluse seeking a quiet place to find solace and to heal. 

The Emily Dickenson quote (pictured) is emboldened by another of her verses: 

"Some keep the Sabbath going to Church-

I keep it, staying at Home-

With a Bobolink for a Chorister-

And an Orchard, for a Dome-"

Her verse concludes with

"So instead of getting to Heaven, at last-

I'm going, all along."

Kudos to all the Seekers out there. We are Zebras of Every Stripe.

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This Quote by Emily Dickenson (pictured) opens Chapter 62 (A Pack of Loners, Alone) of All Drinking Aside.

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"Birds sing after a storm. Why shouldn't we?" - Rose Kennedy

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BE-CAW-CAW-CAUSE I CAN!

Of course, Rose Kennedy's Quote pictured here is not to be taken literally. 

What? When it stops raining, am I to go into the streets and belt out a Song from "West Side Story" or "A Star is Born"? 

Birds don't get depressed, so don't sing to cheer yourself up? 

Shall I jump out the window and flap my wings because that's what birds do? 

Maybe she does mean it literally (except for the jumping out the window part)! 

Birds don't beat dead horses (although they may peck at them), so I'll lay off a bit. 

If the last few sentences drew even the smallest of smiles, perhaps I really do understand this Quote.

Why? Be-caw-caw-cause I can. 

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This Quote by Rose Kennedy (pictured) closes Chapter 62 (A Pack of Loners, Alone) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 63 Inject Me Slowly, Truth

"Let the measure of time be spiritual, not mechanical." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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OH, HOW I WAS SUCH A WIND-UP TOY! The Endless, Indistinguishable Repetitions of the Same Deadly Daily Cycles: Drinking Beyond Obliteration, Outside the Point of Remembrance. Yes, Oh Yes, Addiction is Mechanical. 

ALCOHOLIC SPIRITS REMOVED. I would have settled for only that, like in THE EXORCIST, Possessed, but I Measure my Time Differently Today. Released from the Obsession to Drink, Memories, Hopes, this Very Moment Intact, Living in Recovery, my 17th Anniversary of Continuous Sobriety just days away, Grateful for Life's Fragilities. 

"Let the measure of time be spiritual, not mechanical." Indeed.

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This Quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson (pictured) closes Chapter 63 (Inject Me Slowly, Truthof All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 64 My Extreme Flowchart

"All human evil comes from a single cause, man's inability to sit still in a room." - Pascal

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A CAVEMAN'S INABILITY TO SIT STILL IN A CAVE. 

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Obviously, Evil is not the only possible outcome of sitting in a room. Some Human Achievements may also be so attributable, but that's not the point. 

This little Pascal NUGGET is Pure GOLD! The Sheer Multiplicity of Possible Meanings, Individually & in Groups, bring me Joy where Once it would have brought me Sorrow. From the Existential Nausea of Addiction to the Irreplaceable Triumph of Recovery, I stand by this Quote. But I also take it with a Grain of Salt (Minus the Lemon & Shot of Tequila!). 

How do you or don't you take your Evil? With or without Salt? Sitting? Standing? 

And may I have the Next Dance, Please?

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Chapter 65 Phantom Toes Wiggling

"Success is a lousy Teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose." - Bill Gates

*****

FAILURE felt like I CAN'T WIN when I repeatedly RELAPSED. Addiction is Seductive & Destructive. Even knowing that my brain seemed to crave more alcohol than any body could handle and survive didn't seem to change my drinking reflex. Knowledge is Power, but it seemed Recovery and Alcoholism were Games of Whack-a-Mole and I was losing both badly. Relapse was to be a Lousy Trial & Error Teacher. I would Crawl, attempt to Walk and Fall countless times before Learning to Stand Sober & Strong.

Being a Victim of Addiction & Living Responsibly in Recovery were Worlds Apart for me. The Chasm between them took 8 long years to bridge before now living nearly 17 years of Continuous Sobriety.

Thank you, Bill Gates, for reminding me that a Drink is Always within Arm's Reach.

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"Talk doesn't cook rice." - Chinese Proverb

*****

PRAY WITH YOUR FEET is about the only four (4) word QUIP I can come up with in Quick Response to this Proverb. OKAY, there is INSTANT RICE, but even that requires you to Get Off Your DUFF & DO SOMETHING. 

"Action! Action!! WE WANT ACTION!!!" is a Cheerleader Chant I heard many times over watching my college football team on the field. The Best Part of Recovery Groups (to me) is to continue to MOTIVATE Change. 

RECOVERY is EARNED. Three (3) Words. Guess I'll Quit While I'm Ahead!

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This Chinese Proverb (pictured) closes Chapter 65 (Phantom Toes Wigglingof All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 66 Insanity Cubed

"The human heart in its perversity finds it hard to escape hatred and revenge." - Moses Luzzatto

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"TEACH THEM TO HATE BEFORE THEY TURN 8" is my Perverse Misquote from South Pacific. Hatred and Revenge are likely learned responses, Offense & Defense, which in a Civilized Society may be Unlearned (hopefully), replaced by Love & Forgiveness (don't hold your breath).

IN THE MEANTIME, I'm working on my own little corner of the universe. Addiction is "Insanity Cubed," so, at least, I've taken that Insanity out of the Equation.

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This Quote by Moses Luzzatto (pictured) opens Chapter 66 (Insanity Cubedof All Drinking Aside.

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"Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind." - Albert Einstein

*****

I truly like this Quote, but I have my apprehensions, as if "Something is rotten in the State of Denmark."

Thoughts and feelings are a curious mix for me. Believe as you wish, but I for one, tend to stick with what will be upheld by a Court of Law or in the Halls of Science. I'm not sure exactly what Einstein may have meant by this famous statement, but for me, Science and religion are not some kind of Yin & Yang of Perfection, mutually exclusive yet inseparable. 

I'd put it more like Facts without Feelings are Sterile and Feelings without Facts are Delusional. Even that's saying too much and a bit out of kilter. Balance. A life in balance is what I'm driving at.

Still, this quote makes me feel good and I have to laugh at it, not derisively, rather... joyously, laughing at myself and human folly.

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This Quote by Albert Einstein (pictured) closes Chapter 66 (Insanity Cubedof All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 67 Monkey Frocks

"Alcoholism isn't a spectator sport. Eventually the whole family gets to play." - Joyce Rebeta-Burditt

*****

A BUTTERFLY'S WINGS ARE BROKEN and the Catastrophe Spreads Outward. This BUTTERFLY EFFECT is Up-Close and Personal.

My first visit to an Al-Anon Meeting showed me that I had usually been too anesthetized by alcohol to be aware of the pain I exacted upon others. Families suffer, too, and in many ways more that the addict. After all, they're not taking drugs to relieve their pain. The "whole family gets to play" and eventually will need help too. Soon, there will be no Spectators, only a Tragic, Destructive Spectacle that fans out far and wide. 

The Butterflies are Dying. 

This is truly Global. 

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"Success is liking yourself, liking what you do, and liking how you do it." - Maya Angelou

*****

THIS IS NOT A COP OUT. A 30-year Drinking Career obliterated the life I had or could have had. My Autographical Fiction contains all those gory details. Suffice it to say that Recovery has brought me a whole new life, strong, grateful, satisfying. 

I might have been considered more successful if my life had turned out some other way, but now success has been redefined for me and it is fine and good. The River of Time is Slow and Deep and I am Nourished. 

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Maya Angelou (pictured) closes Chapter 67 (Monkey Frocksof All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 68 Epiphany-Deprived

"When we're connected to others, we become better people." - Randy Pausch

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ADDICTION IS THE DISEASE OF SEPARATION. The Drug is Part of Everything you do Until it Becomes THE ONLY THING YOU DO. Recovery is the Process of Separating from the Addiction and Reconnecting with Yourself and the World. SHARED COURAGE. 

HUMAN.

KIND.

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"Toleration is the greatest gift of the mind; it requires the same effort of the brain that it takes to balance oneself on a bicycle." - Helen Keller

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RED WAGON! RED WAGON! Someone pulled me along until I was old enough for a Tricycle, then a Bicycle (with training wheels). I eventually graduated to a barrel on its side and a Unicycle.

NO MATTER THE MODE, NO MATTER THE LOAD, to this day, I lose my balance, still, at times. 

My INTOLERANCE of those INTOLERANT of OTHERS has been more difficult than all of the above. It's My OXYGEN MASK, I have to remind myself, It's my Serenity, I mutter. Breathe, Jim. JUST BREATHE. Meanwhile, pedal away like a son-of-a-bitch. And breathe.

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This Quote by Helen Keller (pictured) closes Chapter 68 (Epiphany-Deprivedof All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 69 My Last Relapse

"Contentment makes poor men rich. Discontent makes rich men poor." - Benjamin Franklin

*****

Seen through a Sober Lens: "Contentment makes poor men RICH. Discontent makes rich men POOR."

RICH = Living in Recovery

POOR = Living in Addiction

It is no coincidence that THIS Quote ends THIS Chapter of All Drinking Aside. I was Broke and Teetering between Content & Discontent when "My Last Relapse" occurred. My Recurrent Relapse & Recovery Period lasted 8 Years. Understand that I never was and still am not Rich in any conventional sense, so "Contentment makes poor men rich" is the only part of this Quote that fits me now, despite the 30+ years of Discontent in my Addiction. 

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Chapter 70 This Is Page One

"For fast-acting relief, try slowing down." - Lily Tomlin

*****

ADDICTED TO CHAOS is not my QUICK RESPONSE to this Quote by Lily Tomlin. It is my measured response after quiet deliberation. When I hear someone say Addicted to Chaos, with near certainty, I can predict that they are likely in Early Recovery. Chaos is the Consequence  of Addiction and it becomes what one is accustomed to. The infinite richness of a Sober Life may have as many and more ingredients than the Drinking & Drugging Life, but is Rich & Smooth. Even in moments of Chaos in Recovery, the Chaos is a Challenge OUT THERE, met with inner calm and resolve.

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16 May 2021

17 of 180 QUOTES by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous in ALL DRINKING ASIDE (Chapters 51 - 60, Part Six of Nine)

Chapter 51 One Trick Pony, Dismount

"Luck is a matter of preparation meeting opportunity." - Oprah Winfrey

*****

Alcohol did not PREPARE me for CATASTROPHE, but it certainly took me there. Were I to recover, I would have to accept responsibility for my actions. Sobriety offered the opportunity to construct & reconstruct a fruitful & satisfying new life. Recovery is Possible, Doable, Irreplaceable. 

Prepare to meet the moment. Sober. How lucky can you get?

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"To speak ill of others is a dishonest way of praising ourselves." - Will Durant

*****

Gossip and Complaining are Great Ways to Kill Time (Alcoholism and Addiction might be other Great Ways, too). Parenthetically, minus the Parenthesis in the last sentence, one could infer that from my High Horse, I was suggesting that my luxuriating in Gossip and Complaining are nearly non-existent. Not so, Horatio. They have their place in the Social Fabric, but Recovery has taught me to turn down the volume on those affairs and concentrate on my inner workings a Tad More. Practice, not Perfection. 

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This Quote by Will Durant (pictured) closes Chapter 51 (One Trick Pony, Dismount) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 52 Simon Says Stay Sober

"Learn to say no. It will be of more use to you than to be able to read Latin." - Charles Haddon Spurgeon

*****

This is NOT the NO of "Just Say No" to drugs (a failed policy based on unrealistic expectations of America's Youth and the Crime and Punish mindset that accompanied it). This is NOT the NO of Parents saying "Do as I Say, Not as I Do." 

This is the NO that follows Education and Rehabilitation. This is the NO of I'm in Recovery and I do not need a drink or drug. This is the NO of "nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."

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"The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt." - Bertrand Russell 

*****

Life is so very cozy when everything is cut & dried. I wish for ordinary. The stunning and spectacular have no room on my plate, unsweetened oatmeal having lost its heat may be the most that I can deal with here. Nothing curious or irregular, please. Don't make me think. Make mine mundane so I have room to breathe. 

Flowers, cut & dried. I can handle that. Do not confront me with Flowers in Fields. It's too unreal. Why would anyone want to feel? And what, pray tell, is that I smell? Daffodils, no doubt.

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This Quote by Bertrand Russell (pictured) closes Chapter 52 (Simon Says Stay Sober) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 53 Accomplice To Murder?

"Absence of proof is not proof of absence." - William Cowper

*****

The ABSENCE of ABSTINENCE in the Bar Rooms of my 30-year Drinking Career fed my invulnerability to any suggestions of even CUTTING DOWN my consumption (until ALCOHOL had utterly consumed me). If Abstinence existed, my only exposures to it were the Religious Fringe Groups of my youth knocking at my door as Darkly Dressed Bible-Toting Willy Loman-Like Characters.

They were Lead-by-Example FAILS ("I will NEVER be like them!")

Although this William Cowper Quote may be more clever than fully resonant for me, the discussions playing in my head toyed with truths in the neighborhood around it. The Rooms of Recovery remained distant and unknown for years to come.

Coming up on 17 Years of Continuous Sobriety, I need no further PROOF, 100 PROOF OR OTHERWISE.

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by William Cowper (pictured) opens Chapter 53 (Accomplice To Murder?) of All Drinking Aside.

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"I am an agnostic: I do not pretend to know what many ignorant men are sure of." - Clarence Darrow

*****

Monotheism emerged in Egypt a thousand years before the birth of Christ. Polytheism before that. One God, Many Gods, No Gods.  

When asked if he believed in God, W.C, Fields reportedly replied "No" and when pressed as to what he did believe SHOT BACK "I BELIEVE I'LL HAVE ANOTHER COCKTAIL." You may wish that there is PROOF of that, but none exists. 

W.C. died in 1946. I was born in 1950. Perhaps I've been Reincarnated. 100 PROOF.

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Clarence Darrow (pictured) closes Chapter 53 (Accomplice To Murder?) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 54 The God Of Frozen Yogurt

"Silent gratitude isn't very much use to anyone." - Gertrude Stein

*****

"Silent gratitude isn't very much use to anyone."

SURE, SURE, SURE. Actions Speak Louder than Words, but Damn, sometimes I can't help myself and Blurt it out. I must remember, too, the first time I heard someone call themselves "a Grateful Recovering Alcoholic" how delusional I thought they were, if not somehow almost rude. It took time to understand those words. I had to learn how to inhabit them. 

I live my Gratitude in Silence & in Words, just like there are "Books" & "Looks"!

Don't Stare! Why are you looking at me like that? Are you the me that I once was, Incredulous, Afraid?

Do. Be. Live. Fill your plate with Gratitude. Then Share.

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Gertrude Stein (pictured) opens Chapter 54 (The God Of Frozen Yogurt) of All Drinking Aside.

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"Defeat may serve as well as victory to shake the soul and let the glory out." -  Edwin Markham

*****

"Defeat may serve as well as victory to shake the soul and let the glory out." I may emerge from defeat stronger on the other side, if it doesn't permanently disfigure me or downright kill me first. I will admit this: When this statement is TRUE (which is not always), it is PURE POETRY. I see Maya Angelou's Caged Bird Sing and FLY When it's Door Opens, GLORIOUS, TRIUMPHANT. 

When DEFEAT becomes VICTORY 2.0, it is so much sweeter. This may be the one slight advantage RECOVERY has over those who have never been ADDICTED. We have felt the Prison of Addiction so Our Freedom has the Wings of a Different Bird, so to speak.

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Edwin Markham (pictured) closes Chapter 54 (The God Of Frozen Yogurt) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 55 Down For The Count

"Human beings are perhaps never more frightening than when they are convinced beyond doubt that they are right." - Laurens Van der Post

*****

You may believe the World is flat, but that doesn't make it so. Men landed on the Moon. It is not made of Cheese. On and on. Don't frighten me. Agree to disagree, but the Halls of Science and the Courts of Law will be my Guide, are on my side. 

I have been wrong many a time, I concede, and will be wrong again. High-Achieving Alcoholic Failed me in the end. I was not that, never was, never could be. Admit you're wrong or move along. That's all.

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Laurens Van der Post (pictured) opens Chapter 55 (Down For The Count) of All Drinking Aside.

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"Peace of mind is that mental condition in which you have accepted the worst." - Lin Yutang

*****

I thought I was accepting the worst (at the height of my High-Functioning Alcoholic Period) when I imagined my death by alcohol. I would be a Modern Anti-Hero of sorts clutching my Dewar's on the Rocks as I died. Fate accepted. Unfortunately, years later, the reality was none so Heroic and the reality of the moment as I lay dying lacked peace of mind of any kind. 

Accepting the worst of what has already happened is one thing, accepting the worst your imagination can conjure up about the future is quite another. 

I did not have a drink today. And no, that is not the worst that could happen, but you could not have told me that those many years ago. A life without my drink was once the worst I could imagine. Silly boy. 

*****

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Lin Yutang (pictured) closes Chapter 55 (Down For The Count) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 56 Express Snail

"The ego could be defined simply in this way: a dysfunctional relationship with the present moment." - Eckhart Tolle

*****

Was it I or Me or My or Who who Always Had the NEED for MORE? I was not Here & Now when the Drink was WHERE & HOW. Does it matter whether it was the DRINKING that made me DYSFUNCTIONAL or if Drinking merely made me MORE Dysfunctional than that Time Before My Ever First Drink?

At first, NO, it did not matter much. First, I would learn to put down the drink, stop Thinking the Drink, Just STOP. I'm coming up on two Prime Numbers: 17 Years Sober & 71 Years of Age & Still I'm Functioning. 

We-in-Recovery know, at least, that the Best of Life is Minus the Drink or Drug and the Best of Life is in the Here & Now. We-in-Recovery are in the Here & Now. I was not Here & Now when the Drink was WHERE & HOW. I Rest my Case... Now I must Rest.

*****

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This Quote by Eckhart Tolle (pictured) opens Chapter 56 (Express Snail) of All Drinking Aside.

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"Every wrong attempt discarded is a step forward." - Thomas Edison

*****

It is hard to so much as take a step, much less step forward, when addiction is at your throat and has taken hold of your brain. Eventually nothing much will remain of the way your life once was and you will lose sight of the unlimited possibilities of living free of addiction.

Push forward. Push forward anyway you can. Shared Courage. Shared Courage. Find it. Strive on, Incessantly Strive. A better life is on the road ahead. A future can and must be found. There is no use in using. It is you that is being used. Change is possible, doable. Life is precious, irreplaceable. Strive.

*****

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This Quote by Thomas Edison (pictured) closes Chapter 56 (Express Snail) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 57 

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Chapter 58

"A book must be the axe for the frozen sea within us." - Franz Kafka

*****

This Quote by Franz Kafka (pictured) closes Chapter 58 of All Drinking Aside. For me, an Alcoholic in long-term Recovery, "the frozen sea within us" is also the Frozen Sea Between Us. I say this because, as the title of Chapter 58 states, "Alcoholism Disconnects, Recovery Connects." Addiction distances us from ourselves and from others. In Recovery, the healing begins. It would be preposterous of me to say that ALL DRINKING ASIDE is THE ANSWER. IT ISN'T. Like all books, All Drinking Aside is a Recovery tool, one among many. It is but one "axe for the frozen sea within us [and between us]." 

Take all the meanings of this Kafka quote, large and small, and multiply your profits by reading more Recovery books of every stripe, Fiction and Non-Fiction. All Drinking Aside: The Destruction, Deconstruction and Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal is an Autobiographical Fiction. As I tell my True Story, 3 Fictional Characters, unnoticed by me, discuss amongst themselves my prospects for Recovery. As such, it deserves a place on Everyone's Recovery Bookshelf.

Enough said.

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*****

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Chapter 59 Double-Visionary

"Remember always that you have not only the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one." - Eleanor Roosevelt

*****

YES, I have the right to drink, to choose, to live freely, but my obligation to myself is to acknowledge that it is too risky for me to drink. Too many relapses, too many cul-de-sacs, too many near-death experiences. 

YES, I've heard the prison door of addiction is always open, but I know when I am behind those bars (or in a bar), my blinders go on and my brain wants more alcohol than my body can handle. My body shuts down as it has before and in the hospital I go, not knowing, usually, how I got there.

When asked, "Would you like a drink?" my response today is "NO. Thanks. Much obliged."

*****

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This Quote by Eleanor Roosevelt (pictured) opens Chapter 59 (Double-Visionary) of All Drinking Aside.

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"The secret of life is to appreciate the pleasure of being terribly, terribly deceived." - Oscar Wilde

*****

There is DECEPTION in RECOVERY, to be sure, but the Sources of our Deceptions are not the CHEMICALLY-INDUCED INSANITY of ADDICTION. I would have agreed with this Oscar Wilde Quote in my Addiction & I still agree with it in my Recovery, but Today, it is a Sweet Agreement that nothing less than Recovery can bring to me, "terribly, terribly deceived" or not.

(PLEASE NOTE: Double Vision does not exactly make a Visionary a Double-Visionary as the tongue-in-cheek Title of this Chapter might suggest to the [P]un-informed Reader.)

*****

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This Quote by Oscar Wilde (pictured) closes Chapter 59 (Double-Visionary) of All Drinking Aside.

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Chapter 60

"Possibilities and miracles are one and the same." - Anonymous

*****

THE SADDEST OF MIRACLES: 

Recovery is Possible, Doable, Irreplaceable. There is nothing Miraculous about Addiction. So when Recovery is found it would be understandable to attribute it to Divine Intervention. Everything you Believe seems to be Miraculous and indeed it may be, but when the Food Server presents the check at the end of meal, it must be paid for, the Miracle of a seed sprouting the wheat which made the pasta you just fully-consumed ASIDE. 

Recovery is Possible, but requires Work. Left to its own devices, Addiction will consume you. Addiction is the Saddest of Miracles. Work on your Recovery and the Miracle of Recovery will Manifest itself.

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"Hatred is never anything but fear- if you feared no one, you would hate no one." - Hugh Downs

*****

Hugh Downs Quote here reflects maladaptive relationships (notice he says "no one," not no thing) between people to me. I take it to mean that the more we know and come to better understand others, the more mutual connections we would form and the less likely we would be to hate them. 

Fear of others may be the sensible, justifiable response to some unknown Other based on best guesses and previous experience, but I don't think that's what he's getting at. 

If I may Quote and Misquote: Combine "Getting to Know You, Getting to Know All About You" (from "The King and I") with (here's the misquote from "South Pacific") "Teach Them to Hate Before They Turn Eight" (the lesson being DON'T DO THAT!). 

What do you get when you combine my two whimsical, vastly over-generalized and spurious reactions to the Hugh Downs Quote? Basically, "Love your neighbor as yourself." 

Sorry, I calls 'em like I sees 'em!

[I can't wait to read the Rebuttals in the Comments Section!]

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All Drinking Aside bookends each of its 90 Chapters with Quotes by the Famous, Infamous & Anonymous.

This Quote by Hugh Downs (pictured) closes Chapter 60 (An Unremembered Emptiness) of All Drinking Aside.

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