"There was a time when I was not there, but I did not know it yet. I would drink to forget, forgetting what I did not know. Not yet. I did not know yet. Where was I then, when I was not there? For years I lived somewhere between myself and the next drink. I would drink to forget what I could not think, halfway to nowhere and another drink. I was grieving and I did not know it. Someone was dying, but I could not feel it, feel my own dying. I could not own it because it owned me. Denial is so hard to feel, yet, there it is, standing next to you. You: Halfway to nowhere and another drink."
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There. I did it. Unpacked a poem and repackaged it as prose for those averse to verse. ALL DRINKING ASIDE may not be for you. Verse infiltrates that text as prose because as everyone knows, don't pose a poem except as prose. Otherwise, who knows? The patient may take a turn for the worse.
It's only poetry if I say it is. It's not. It's the Destruction, Deconstruction and Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal.
Build with it what you will.
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