05 February 2017

"The Flow of Alcohol is Beaten by..."


The Flow of Alcohol is Beaten by
The Flow of Life.
(The River of Time is Slow & Deep)


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A Dog-Eared Review of All Drinking Aside!


 on April 24, 2015

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So I probably wouldn't need my high-lighter, right? WRONG!!! The book was so good that I found myself starting to bend the corners of certain pages and finally broke down and started high-lighting many passages. Much of the book is now high-lighted in yellow.

Jim Anders tells the journey inside the mind of an alcoholic/addict from the beginnings through recovery. Whether or not you are an addict/alcoholic, we all know someone who is (often in our family). This book clears away the mystery of much that is going on.

I highly recommend it and am already thinking of people to whom I might gift it.


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03 February 2017

"Alcohol Replaced Me, Cell by Cell... "


Alcohol replaced me, cell by cell.
Until none of me was left.
Or so it seemed.
My life,
A dream within a dream within a dream.
Merrily,
Then not so merrily,
Now merrily again.

Row, Row, Row your boat
Until you can no longer float.

That's how it went.
That's how it was.
But I have lived to tell the tale.

Adjust your sail.

Without fail, 
Recovery will replace your fall from grace,
Cell by cell, alcohol will be replaced.
Your place at the table is set.

Welcome back to the Human Race.


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This verse is not from All Drinking Aside, but I hope that it will serve 
as a bridge, a window and a door to what you will find there....
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02 February 2017

What Matters More?


"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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from All Drinking AsideThe Destruction, Deconstruction 
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Tomorrow is the Apple Seed of Now


... Tomorrow is a storm coming over South Mountain.
The lightning's light will quickly reach us.
The thunder's rumble: an old man shuffling our way.
I thirst for rain, the hope for change.
I hold hope and turn it in my hand
like a hand holding and turning an apple.
Tomorrow is the apple seed of now....
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from All Drinking AsideThe Destruction, Deconstruction 
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01 February 2017

As Fresh as Tomorrow!


The latest Reader Review of All Drinking Aside
(27th 5***** Star Review)
A Sobering Autobiographical Fiction

on February 1, 2017
this is an excellent book that delves into the alcoholic mind and life. 
it's a great read for everyone. drinkers and non drinkers. 
I recommend it to everyone






31 January 2017


I drank long enough and hard enough that eventually there was no bar big enough to hold my emptiness.

All ??? Aside




30 January 2017

Worried by Alcoholism? I Wasn't....


"Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere."
- Anonymous

For at least the first decade of my drinking career, calling myself an alcoholic, at least to the people sitting on the barstools next to me, was not a problem. Bragging rights. "I don't know how I got home, I was so messed up." Expressions like these were commonplace. But by the second decade, I started losing coats, keys, apartments, jobs. The progression of alcoholism with all its subtle and in-your-face changes is not a straight downward descent. It is marked by peaks and valleys. My third decade of drinking was littered with lapses in employment and housing. That new normal required that I drink at home, alone, when I had a home. By that time, I was not worried by alcoholism, I was worried about the next drink. Increasingly I drank more. My blackouts would occur around the end of the sixth drink and I would continue to drink until I passed out, usually two or three hours later, by my recollection.

"The further alcohol took me away from myself, the less I understood that I was losing my foothold. From the outside, I am sure it looked like I was becoming more and more selfish, but increasingly, I was not feeding myself, i was feeding my disease. The more selfish I may have appeared, the more my disease had dissolved my self away."

Not worrying in my addiction was really a form of defeatism. In recovery, not worrying is a positive thing. 

Recovery: Do the next right thing, the next right thing. 

No worry.

End of story.


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The passage in quotes, above, is from All Drinking Aside. 
I hope that this post will serve as a bridge, a window and a door 
to what you will find there....
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29 January 2017

The Snake Pit of Addiction


"Alcoholism isn't a spectator sport. Eventually the whole family gets to play."
- Joyce Rebeta Burditt

Morning Meditation: Sobriety is a gift. Recovery is earned.*
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A snake pit is a place in European legend where those considered insane were placed. It was thought that being lowered into a pit filled with snakes would terrorize one back to sanity. Failing that treatment, the insane could be abandoned to die. "The Snake Pit" is also a 1948 Olivia de Havilland drama in which  she finds herself in an insane asylum but can't remember how she got there. Waking up in the hospital (coming to, really) and not knowing how I got there should have been my snake pit, scaring me sober, but alcoholism "is a subtle foe." I would not be scared sober so easily, despite addiction itself being a snake pit of sorts.
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If I had known then what I know now is an old refrain. But it is my belief that the stigma of addiction perpetrates further victimization of addicts and alcoholics. Stigma = Silence = Death. I could not hear what was not spoken. Suffer in silence. I learned to accept that I was an alcoholic and would probably die an early death and that would have to be good enough. It is an odd acceptance of a condition when it is not fully understood. I did not understand and I would drink again. Deep in my addiction, I knew no people in recovery. The stigma of addiction would contribute to the silence of those who had found recovery. Stigma would be self-perpetuating. Ignorance would continue. Suffering would continue. Recovery would be a long, drawn out process, still taking place in my twelfth year sober. I would help break the stigma of addiction by refusing to remain silent in my sobriety (I did not fully understand that this would be a major underlying reason for writing my book, odd as that may sound).
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I felt such a sadness when I first read Joyce Rebeta Burditt's "Alcoholism isn't a spectator sport. Eventually the whole family gets to play" quote. I felt it on many levels. The havoc that addiction has played out in the families of everyone around me as the decades have passed would have been impossible to ignore. I was a spectator of how addiction played out in others' families, although it played out fairly in silence in mine. 
Addiction is everywhere. Few are untouched by it. Addicts, so anesthetized, are not keenly aware of the burdens and pain afflicted by them upon their families . All suffer, certainly not only the addict. But addiction is sometimes a silent killer. We don't talk about it enough and keeping it from the light of day worsens and protracts its deadly effects.
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"Eventually the whole family gets to play" is a dark humor which forced me to confront addiction's heavy toll upon the very fabric of social construction. Families can only sweep so much under the carpet before a corpse is found there. Stigma is a corpse of sorts, a half-alive zombie, a major contributor to a future addict's death or at the very least, prolonged suffering.
For me, an almost perverse sense of humor has been a defense against the stark realities touched upon here. I'm happy to say that much has changed in my lifetime, but the change has been excruciatingly slow. There is little patience in this snake pit either.
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In the Morning Meditation beneath Burditt's profound quote, I say that 'Sobriety is a gift' because it was for me in this sense: I had reached a tipping point by around the second decade of daily drunkenness. Periodic binges seemed only to end by hospitalization. Waking in the hospital repeatedly was another snake pit. How did I get there? I was a blackout drinker who would continue drinking beyond the scope of memory's possibility. Presumably I would have died drinking in a blackout had my physical body not given out first. My brain wanted more alcohol than by body could survive consuming. The ultimate hamster on the ultimate wheel, destruction or death were the only alternatives (so I once thought). I would never have willfully chosen to stop drinking in these instances.Imminent death put a temporary hold on my downhill slide. Sobriety was truly a gift in these cases. 
The gift of near-death survival. Survival by luck, not by choice.  
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The "Recovery is earned" part of this Morning Mediation was my realization through repeated relapses that sustained sobriety would require a concerted effort by me with the help of many others. I would have to take action, make changes. Recovery is not a gift. The air around me today is such that I breathe recovery on a daily basis. Twelve plus years of daily holding onto my life with a gratitude for each day accumulated sober. Action. Recovery has become a way of life, of living, of doing. Action.
Sobriety was a gift. My recovery has been earned. Snake pit, a European legend lived and learned.



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*Both the Burditt quote and the Morning Meditation beneath it open the 67th Chapter of All Drinking Aside. This juxtaposition is an intentional stark contrast. Addiction is complex. It would be an injustice to think that solutions would be simple.

28 January 2017

Mystery & Greed (Humanity & Alcoholism)


"There are three mysteries in the world: the air to the bird, the water to the fish, and man to himself."
Hindu expression
"Alcoholism is the disease of greed. Its progressive desire for more is its own punishment."
All Drinking Aside
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Serenity and Addiction cannot coexist.
Unquenchable thirst on a sinking ship with not a drop to drink
(Yet drunk, yet drunk, yet drunk, yet drunk).
Serenity includes a keen awareness that drunkenness evades.


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