02 February 2023

Valentine's Day Poem Free for You to Share: "I Want to Kiss You Everywhere!"​


[Written more than half a lifetime ago, I unearthed this gem recently. It shows a side of me from before the publication of "All Drinking Aside," my first book.]

"I Want to Kiss You EVERYWHERE!"
by
Jim Anders

I want to kiss you everywhere.
On your mouth. On the beach. On Tuesday.
On your neck. On the bus. Was it yesterday?
On your chest. Am I blessed? Can it be soon?
On your arms. Oh, your charms. Upon the moon.
And your waist, I can taste. And in June.
******
I want to kiss you everywhere.
Like a child, sometimes mild, sometimes not.
On your thighs. On your eyes. Damn, you're hot.
On your feet. On your cheek for all I've got.
On your wrist. And for a twist, in the park.
In the dark. In the light. On your heart.
*****
I want to kiss you everywhere.
Going downtown. Going all around. 
Kissing everywhere. In the kitchen. On the stair.
When you smile. Should you frown.
Show me how. Tell me where. Tell me when.
And then I'll kiss you everywhere again.
*****
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31 January 2023

We were never not in recovery.


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The Frontispiece to Becoming Unbroken: Reflections on Addiction & Recovery

 


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27 January 2023

HUMANKIND: Be Kind. Be Kind. Be Kind.

 


Sometimes a writer can do no better than to leave wide gaps in expression knowing each reader will fill in the gaps based on their own experience. The title to this short post and the accompanying quote stills my beating heart.

I imagine a dying animal in the wild turned from predator to prey by a broken leg. 

As a Human Community, we celebrate accomplishments, we grieve losses. we express ourselves in words and actions. 

Be kind. Be kind. Be kind.

Kindness defines us.

We can do no better.  

22 January 2023

They went around the circle at my first group meeting in the psychiatric hospital asking each of us in turn how we felt.


It wasn't long afterwards, as I recall, that I was prescribed psychiatric medication. 
Is anyone surprised that it took me eight years of relapsing on drugs and alcohol before I found 18 years of continuous recovery?

*****

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06 January 2023

 


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31 December 2022

PUTTING LIPSTICK ON A TWICE-BAKED POTATO.

 


As each day and year and lifetime passes, age consumes us.
The American Culture, and increasingly our human world-at-large, becomes more and more youth-oriented. And that leaves me becoming, increasing in age seemingly by leaps and bounds, day by day less visible. Embracing my inevitably increasing invisibility has become almost child's play to me.
For decades I shunned the spotlight, always the loner. The invisibility of ageism has been far easier for me than most. Embracing Invisibilities has become my stock-in-trade. The price one pays for living long is endured by gratitude. 
I suppose putting lipstick on a twice-baked potato shows my decline in creative abundance as I age, but humor has a way of salving wounds.
PASS THE SOUR CREAM. I am living the dream.
Invisibly.


30 November 2022

Triggers


Connection with others is my Trigger to Recovery.

Of course, it didn't start out that way. When I first got Clean & Sober, after all the substances left by bloodstream and my brain, a certain residue remained. I was an addict and an alcoholic without the drugs. After 30 years of daily alcohol and drug use, I was left grasping at straws, and swizzle sticks- tell the truth. Everything reminded me of drinks and drugs. The only thing in my toolbox was a half-gallon plastic bottle of the world's cheapest vodka followed by almost anything else available as each day and night progressed.
When everything is a Trigger, nothing is a Trigger. Yes, I was that burned out and hopeless. Not drinking felt like a form of punishment to me. That I could not drink and drug and live seemed obvious. Eight years of multiple relapses was my form of slowly tapering off the drugs and the lifestyle. As a matter of fact, I was a bartender for my very first year sober.
Somehow, a drink found its way into my hands and there began 7 years of drinking and not drinking, on and off the wagon with broken wheels. 
The many broken promises and a thousand lame excuses behind me, I thought I could never carve myself a life in recovery that could fill up what had become the empty glass of a broken life.

Which brings me to now, after a sigh, a pause and a renewed breath.

Everything was a Trigger, truly, at first. My drunk dreams lasted for months, daily, seriously daily. Emotions, internal, stuffed deep down by denial slowly released themselves. Internal and external triggers were everywhere. Memories, every sight and sound, took me back to wanting a drink I knew I had to grow beyond. 

Eighteen years later, the pop sound of opening a can of soda still sounds like a can of beer to my alcoholic ear, despite the fact I didn't really care that much for beer but would drink it in the shower from a sippy cup to sober up while showering and readying myself for work, when I had work. Home, when I had a home. Self, when I had a self. 

It was bad.

I would learn to replace my triggers with actions. Nature abhors a vacuum. The mere absence of drugs and alcohol could never be enough. Replacement of everything I did drunk, which was everything, would have to be replaced, slowly, by what became a life lived fully in recovery.

Trigger>Thought>Craving>Use.

I had to learn to stop such thoughts in their tracks by taking action, doing something until such thoughts were dispelled. I've heard that doing something, anything, for 20 minutes, will clear the mind of triggers until the next one crops up. Reading, writing, singing, dancing, taking a walk, whatever it takes, take it.

Parties, sporting events, concerts, so much as passing a liquor store or a certain highway exit, on and on, were all triggers for me at first because before I got sober, every activity included a dozen drinks before, after and during,

A Gratitude List and a Daily Commitment to Recovery helped me train my impulsiveness. 

The knowledge of my powerlessness over drugs and alcohol slowly were replaced by power over my own choices and behaviors. 

Time and dedication of purpose.

Today, triggers make me snicker. I'm a Trigger Snicker-er. OMG (spelled J-O-Y), I am so happy to have travelled the long haul to today.

Let me end where I started: "Connection with others is my Trigger to Recovery."

My Gratitude and Many Thanks to my Facebook friends who gave me much help and inspiration for this post. Last Names are Not Included because I must protect the Anonymity of any who might choose it. Thank you, Claire A, Calvin G, Hazel I, Mike M, Neil V, Lori B, Kimberly J, Linda L, James S, Kyli L, James R, Nicole S. Maggie B, Jode F, Misty L, Pat O, Danny J, Peter S and Linda C & Peggy C. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE & MANY OF YOU KNOW EACH OTHER, So, One and All, I Thank You One and All!
All of you are MY CONNECTIONS TO RECOVERY.  Woo-hoo!
*****

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23 November 2022

What's for Dinner? GRATITUDE!

 

Let's get right to the meat of this post: GRATITUDE!!!
Keep a journal, daily, weekly, whatever it takes. Writing your thoughts down is better than just thinking them. The physical act reinforces the thought. You're on your way to behavior change without even realizing it!
Your physical, mental and overall recovery health will improve. If you don't like it, "we will gladly refund your misery," as I've heard said in Recovery Meetings.
15 seconds, 15 minutes, go at your own pace. 15 hours? lol I'm not there yet!
Taking the time to take your time will increase your powers of mental focus. It's no hocus-pocus. An attitude of gratitude will fill you like a good Thanksgiving Dinner. 
Gratitude is gravy. Ladle it generously!
Gratitude will calm you down, maybe even lower your blood pressure and heart rate. 
Be a Grateful Caregiver. Share the wealth of gratitude you have. It will multiply. "Silent gratitude isn't very much use to anyone." - Gertrude Stein
Addiction is draining. Gratitude is healing.
Be Grateful that this post isn't one word longer.
Stronger.
Damn it! I'm a Grateful Liar.
Gratitude is Recovery's Fire.
*****

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