14 October 2018

Alcoholic-in-the-Making: "The Good Ole Days"?

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If not an alcoholic-in-the-making, perhaps this excerpt would reflect what I could never now call "The Good Ole Days":
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"Shortly after graduating from college, my housemate, Gene and I would catalog our discussions on the relative merits of various wines, domestic vs. imported, Spain vs. Chile, the similarities and differences between Cabernet Sauvignon and Sauvignon Blanc, all this and more, until we would have the inevitable ‘after-dinner drinks’ and discussion of this glass and that glass and this corkscrew type vs. that corkscrew type, until in an eventual drunken stupor, I would blackout, pass out and suffer through my next day hangover. Hangover preventions. Hangover cures. The ins and outs of drinking. How to become a really, really, really good drinker. 
"Alcohol was taking over my life in each and every form and I didn’t even know it. I had learned more and more about scotch and wine and beer and cocktail recipes and this glass and that glass, boiler-makers and hot toddies and which garnish goes with which drink and on and on. More and more knowledge about alcohol and no real knowledge of alcoholism. Generally speaking, as I got more and more entrenched in alcoholic behavior, the more I felt sophisticated, the less sophisticated I must have appeared. Who could see the forest? All I saw were trees.... "


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"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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Passages in quotes are excerpted from ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction and Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
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13 October 2018

My 5***** Star Review of MEDITATIONS ON SELF-DISCIPLINE AND FAILURE by William Ferraiolo

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In the Introduction to MEDITATIONS ON SELF-DISCIPLINE AND FAILURE: Stoic Exercise for Mental Fitness, William Ferraiolo asserts that "you may have a very different experience than another reader of the same text." Well-stated and true, I read this 300-paragraph volume of meditations through the lens of a recovering alcoholic and addict.
My own early recovery placed me on the square fuzzily marked 'Cynic' (in the Modern, twisted use of the word cynic, not the classic Cynicism of Ancient Philosophy). My emotional detachment was a direct result of addiction and of hitting bottom, not a part of my essential nature before or after. Years of recovery have helped me to rejoin the human race and brought me to the doorsteps of Stoicism and the Ancient Philosopher Epictetus. The Serenity Prayer, which is part of the last chapter of the last book of MEDITATIONS ON SELF-DISCIPLINE AND FAILURE: Stoic Exercise for Mental Fitness, is for me a great summary for most of the content of the preceding 29 Books.
Ferraiolo's use of language is polished, the truths exposed, unvarnished. His brilliant use of italics and exclamation points acts to heighten a reader's appreciation of the Narrator's voice. Truly, this book sounds best (My use of italics, pun intended) when read aloud. In fact, it was nearly impossible for me to read from MEDITATIONS... without reading passages aloud to whomever was in earshot!
"Just about anything could (His use of italics, spot on) go wrong" (Book V, Chapter 1) and (Book VI, Chapter 1) "Grow up! Admit that you are no one special" are two short examples of his italics and exclamation point use and brings the Narrator's voice upfront and personal to great effect.
Each reader will find their own quotable clusters of brilliance in MEDITATIONS.... I'll cite "Genuine gratitude is incompatible with arrogance" (Book VI, Chapter 9) and (Book XXI, Chapter 6) "Gratitude must never be far from your mind" as two of my favorite short examples worthy of further Meditation.
This book's prescriptions for a good life, "a life governed by reason," maintain a consistent voice throughout, a string of 300 pearls of wisdom masterfully constructed and delivered with a drumbeat's measured, rhythmic cadence. The Meditations found herein fit snugly into the Self-Help category. As author William Ferraiolo notes, "Stop whining and get to work (Book XXI, Chapter 10)."
Book XXVII, Chapter 6 notes that "Human character has not improved over the ages" and I must insist on adding that this 5***** Star Book is among my favorite reads in a dozen years. I hope that will be YOUR experience, too!
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You may also want to read ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction and Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO  
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10 October 2018

DRUNK WITH POWER!!!

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No, not really. But it got you to read these 2nd and 3rd lines, for starters!
"DRUNK WITH POWER," to me (and if you're someone like me), is one of the most ridiculous expressions I have ever heard. It makes no sense to me! One drink makes me powerless over the second and BAM!, Domino Effect, I'm swallowed up (pun intended) by the next and every other drink to follow.
It doesn't matter how hard I try or how long I've been abstinent, I cannot drink under any and all circumstances and after 14+ years of continuous sobriety, I wouldn't drink if you paid me and do not want to.
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But back to the expression, "DRUNK WITH POWER," and what a Tripping Stone (vs. Stepping Stone) it can be in Recovery, especially Early Recovery. "DRUNK WITH POWER" suggests an Ego Trip and I have found, in my own Recovery and the Recovery of others, that "Ego is not my Amigo," that Ego, in all of its Glorifications, can Trip You Up (hence, Tripping Stone), will Trip You Up and has Tripped Me Up (ha!). 
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"DRUNK WITH POWER" and Humility have never been on the same page, with the possible exception of False Humility, a commodity so common, I'm surprised it's not on the New York Stock Exchange!
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In an attempt to end cheerfully (and not digging myself in any deeper), let me quickly end with Think About It (Drunk with Power) and... 
"Don't Forget Where You Come From, Bum!" and "It's Nice To Be Important, But It's More Important To Be Nice!"




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150+ Recovery Posts: https://goo.gl/fmzt9b

18 September 2018

Between ONE DAY & DAY ONE


Between ONE DAY & DAY ONE
(one day quitting using & day one living sober)
must be an interminable stretch.
I never had those ONE DAY thoughts
(drinking until my body gave out)
but 
ALL DRINKING ASIDE 
is for them, too.
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO 
Whatever the addiction, for them too. #recovery  #addiction #autobiographicalfiction


20 August 2018

7 FAVORITE Recovery-Related Posts


In no particular order, here are the Links to 7 FAVORITE Recovery-Related Posts written by the author of ALL DRINKING ASIDE (book excerpts excluded).

1) "Think Before You Give a Gift of Drink" https://goo.gl/Rb8L4h
2) "The Tomb of the Anonymous Addict" https://goo.gl/MPyrMh
3) "Pie-Eyed, Plastered, Tipsy, Tanked & Toasted (& Other Euphemisms that no longer apply to me)" https://goo.gl/GcMPXj
4) "My Recovery DECLARATION of Inter-DEPENDENCE" https://goo.gl/w142v3
5) "153 Years of PTSD: What We Called It & How It Changed Us (in 9 Short Sentences) https://goo.gl/NiKHXd
6) "From Addiction to Recovery: Responsibility Set Me Free" https://goo.gl/JJA7QG
7) "The Alcoholic Fox & The Grapes of Recovery (in 11 short sentences)" https://goo.gl/DBkafW



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You may also enjoy this author's Autobiographical Fiction, ALL DRINKING ASIDE: http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
Recovery Tweets: http://twitter.com/JimAnders4
150+ Recovery Posts: https://goo.gl/fmzt9b

30 July 2018

The WHAT & WHERE of 25 #Cancer #Recovery Posts


PLEASE NOTE: Everybody's recovering from something, whether it be alcoholism, addiction or cancer. If not you, then somebody you know. At the very least, we are all recovering from others and from ourselves.
*****
My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!
All 25 #Cancer #Recovery Posts are to be found (in reverse Chronological Order) between May 22, 2018 and July 24, 2018 on this link: www.alldrinkingaside.com.

Here's the breakdown of all 25 Posts:
1. A Tongue-in-Cheek look at my supposed loss of REVERSE X-Ray Vision STRIPPED BY Chemo and Radiation (May 22, 2018).
2. Unlike being in the throes of Alcohol Addiction where I would "Increase Alcohol Use with Prescription Medicine" my Cancer Recovery would better align with the real Doctors' Orders (May 22, 2018).
3. A Cancer Survivor Guest Post bravely addresses aspects of recovery from breast cancer (May 23, 2018).
4. A gut reaction to Lao Tzu's "New Beginnings Are Often Disguised as Painful Endings" in this (May 24, 2018) post.
5. False perceptions unearthed in "The Mystery of the Pulsating Cancer Mask Revealed!" in this (May 26, 2018) post.
6. Crippling uncertainties explored in this "Lies & Doubts, Cancer & Recovery, Alcoholism & Addiction" (May 27, 2018) post.
7. "Cancer Reinforces My Recovery from Addiction & Alcoholism (& Vice Versa)" in this (May 28, 2018) post.
8. " When Gratitude Descends into Entitlement... " (June 1, 2018)
9. "Virtuous Cycles of Recovery from Cancer / Alcoholism / Addiction" (June 3, 2018)
10. Cancer Stigma and Addiction Stigma explored in this (June 3, 2018) post.
11. "Only Because My Cancer Spread Was It Discovered!" (June 6, 2018)
12. The passage of time in recovery discussed in this 12th post (June 7, 2018)
13. Fear is the subject of this 13 post (June 10, 2018).
14. Fight or Flight (sort of a continuation of #13), June 14, 2018 post.
15. Counting on others becomes the bottom line in this June 15, 2018 post.
16. Coping with the loss of my sense of taste, cessation of hair growth from chemo and radiation (June 15, 2018).
17. Gathering Courage as the Cancer Treatments continue in this 17th post (June 19, 2018).
18. A Neighbor Proclaims that "Cancer is Contagious" in this WTF (June 17, 2018) post.
19. The transition "FROM: Dying to Drink / TO: Eating to Live" compared here (June 30, 2018).
20. Sustainable recovery explored in this (July 2, 2018) post.
21. Considerations of post-chemo and post-radiation symptoms explored (July 4, 2018) here.
22. The importance of patience as my Cancer treatments conclude (July 7, 2018).
23. "CANCER: S.M.L. (Stigma, Myths & Lies)..." (July 9, 2018)
24. Cancer Conspiracy Theories exploded (July 13, 2018)
25. "Cancer Hangs Over Me" is my reaction to Cancer in verse (July 24, 2018)
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For convenience sake: All 25 #Cancer #Recovery Posts are to be found (in reverse Chronological Order) between May 22, 2018 and July 24, 2018 on this link: www.alldrinkingaside.com.
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You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
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An Addiction Fiction & Autobiography-in-One / Check out the 30+ 5***** Star Reviews!





24 July 2018

Cancer Post (#25 of 50) "Cancer Hangs Over Me"


PLEASE NOTE: Everybody's recovering from something, whether it be alcoholism, addiction or cancer. If not you, then somebody you know. At the very least, we are all recovering from others and from ourselves.
I awoke from a dream, more a nightmare, really, akin to the drunk dreams I sometimes still occasionally experience. Just as recovery from alcoholism and addiction have become part of my permanent landscape in recovery, so too, cancer has now become a permanent fixture in my life. In both cases, relapse and recurrence are a forever possibility, both best dealt with one day at a time (in their many permutations).
This 25th of an anticipated 50 Cancer Recovery-Related Posts is unlike all the others (a link to all 25 posts thus far is at the bottom). It is expressed in verse because it best captures the disjointed emotions related to facing many of my life's inevitabilities and the realization that I have learned to remain strong, to adjust my sails.
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"Cancer Hangs Over Me"

Kittens and puppies is how it will start.

Buried, I will be
(I will be buried)
by some third shoe
(Daddy, I'm already dead).

Addiction Affliction was thrown at me from across the room.
Then Cancer, when Cancer, then Cancer came,
The first pelt of rain.

This, a nightmare
(You know it is),
is happening to you
(Has happened. Who?).

Forever
(Before the first ever)
Cancer hangs over me.
Waiting for some third shoe to drop.

Cancer now is a part of my life
(Is my life)
like Addiction's trail so unmercifully long had become.

The first few drops came as kittens and puppies.
Then the rain made a hard right turn,
Now cats and dogs, raining cats and dogs.
The shoes came along, galoshes and boots,
knocked me to the ground, beaten and bruised.

Be sure, this is a dream and I will survive this, too.
But be sure, too,
I am a shoe,
weather-beaten,
worn....

I am a shoe.

(Photo Credit: Arizona Daily Star on Pinterest)
*****
My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
*****
Strive on, Fellow Travelers! No matter what your fight and challenges! Help is out there.
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A Call to Arms!
No, not guns and ammunition. I'm talking human arms, embracing and carrying forward messages of Trust and Hope among all Cancer patients, their families, friends and co-workers. We need each others support. Don't isolate due to the ignorance of others. Share freely. Dispel myths. Move forward.
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Everybody's Recovering from Something. Get Help. Find Help. Help others.
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I am not a Hero, but on my good days at least, I am no longer a victim. I and you and us and we are more important than fear and doubt and prejudice and ignorance and a basketful of other evils.
In Sobriety, I have chosen to not be a victim of Cancer, Cancer's Pawn. I Can-Cer Vive (stolen from an origin unknown). I can survive Cancer because, in the end, I shall not have left me be it's Victim. I will be a Victor of Cancer, no matter the actually outcome.
Be a Victor. Live Victoriously!
*****
The 1st 24 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence posts are immediately below this Twenty-Fifth one on the link provided here (Reverse Chronological Order):
https://alldrinkingaside.blogspot.com
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(If you're already on the All Drinking Aside Blog page, consider this link part of my ridiculousness!)
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#SurviveCancer #SurviveAddiction #SurviveYourself
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Finally, whether it be Cancer, Addiction, Alcoholism, Recovery or All of the Above, "Hear Ye! Hear Ye... ! Read All About it, Wherever, Whenever, However!
*****
You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
*****
An Addiction Fiction & Autobiography-in-One / Check out the 30+ 5***** Star Reviews!
*****
TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!


13 July 2018

CANCER Cure CONSPIRACY (yes, many can't be unconvinced) #24 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence


JFK and ELVIS are alive & roommates in Rio De Janeiro.... EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT. Everybody who is a Conspiracy Theorist, that is.
Conspiracy theories about Cancer also abound. Tiny, missing facts and speculation, somehow uncovered, become the mortar filling the gaps of public knowledge with irrational fears and double-dare doubts. No doubt, lizards from outer space also somehow fit into the REAL solution as to why Cancer has been cured, but that Big Pharma, for multiple inexplicable reasons, is loathe to let US in on. DON'T WORRY. The Moon Landing and the World Trade Center collapse were FAKED, so why wouldn't Cancer be on the list of Unsolved Conspiracies?
Why won't the FDA allow the cure to be marketed?
How have the public and private sectors been forced to remain silent?
Who's making all the money from withholding the Cancer Cure?
Why can't medical professionals, knowing what they know, cure their friends, their families, themselves?
For now, I'll have to be content with the aftereffects of Chemotherapy and Radiation Therapy while I wait for the effects from piercing pins into my Cancer Effigy. Voodoo is real. Tippecanoe and Cancer Too. Don't confuse me with Facts. You know who they are!
Cancer S.M.L (Stigma, Myths, Lies & other Glories.)
Believe the Truth, Not all the Stories!

(Photo Credit: X-Files/20th Century Fox on Pinterest)
*****
My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
*****
Strive on, Fellow Travelers! No matter what your fight and challenges! Help is out there.
*****
A Call to Arms!
No, not guns and ammunition. I'm talking human arms, embracing and carrying forward messages of Trust and Hope among all Cancer patients, their families, friends and co-workers. We need each others support. Don't isolate due to the ignorance of others. Share freely. Dispel myths. Move forward.
*****
Everybody's Recovering from Something. Get Help. Find Help. Help others.
*****
I am not a Hero, but on my good days at least, I am no longer a victim. I and you and us and we are more important than fear and doubt and prejudice and ignorance and a basketful of other evils.
In Sobriety, I have chosen to not be a victim of Cancer, Cancer's Pawn. I Can-Cer Vive (stolen from an origin unknown). I can survive Cancer because, in the end, I shall not have left me be it's Victim. I will be a Victor of Cancer, no matter the actually outcome.
Be a Victor. Live Victoriously!
*****
The 1st 23 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence posts are immediately below this Twenty-Fourth one on the link provided here (Reverse Chronological Order):
https://alldrinkingaside.blogspot.com
*****
(If you're already on the All Drinking Aside Blog page, consider this link part of my ridiculousness!)
*****
#SurviveCancer #SurviveAddiction #SurviveYourself
*****
Finally, whether it be Cancer, Addiction, Alcoholism, Recovery or All of the Above, "Hear Ye! Hear Ye... ! Read All About it, Wherever, Whenever, However!
*****
You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
*****
An Addiction Fiction & Autobiography-in-One / Check out the 30+ 5***** Star Reviews!
*****
TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!

09 July 2018

CANCER: S.M.L. (Stigma, Myths & Lies) #23 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence


Here I stand, nearly finished with all the chemotherapy, radiation and hydration therapies and yes, all or most of my side-effects symptoms should begin to subside, but, trust me, much of this has been unforeseen and unexpected.
Stigma, Myths and Lies will likely continue following me like a slug. Certainly, positive behaviors on my part are 'de rigueur' to lessen the possibilities for a recurrence of cancer. My attitude is important. Now on the other side of treatments, my cancer is no longer in the category of a fight I have to win, which had sort of been my attitude at first. That evolved into less doubt and more trust in the procedures and knowledge of my doctors and other care-givers.
One of the biggest myths, which I intuitively did seem to get is that the types and numbers of different cancers and their prescribed forms of treatment vary to the extreme in location in the body, severity of diagnosis and treatment regimens tailored to the strengths and weaknesses of the patients.
In short, cancer is truly not one simple little disease. It covers spectrums still unimaginable to me. The cause/causes of my cancer seem almost inconsequential after the fact. I was not doomed to get cancer and there may have indeed been little I could have done up to the point of diagnosis to prevent its onslaught. But now that treatments at my level of care have subsided, it's up to me to eat and exercise to help aftercare improve as quickly as possible. Even my hereditary cancer history doesn't do much to point blame my way.
Blaming my parents more than dangerous behaviors not inherited, such as alcohol and tobacco addiction isn't really an answer for me either. From a personal perspective, cause and blame have been removed from my vocabulary. Environmental toxins are my personal best guess. We live in a world poisoned by the thousands of chemicals in our environment everywhere. Earth, at least the urban world I live in is certainly no Garden of Eden.
Contrary to my initial sense of "Oh, boy, I've got cancer. Print up the death notices. Write your will. Kiss your ass good-bye" have quickly dissipated.
I remember being told that sugar is a super food to cancer, at least in the tracer chemicals used in the full-body scan images used in the preliminary looks at my hard and soft palates and the outpost of cancer which had migrated to my neck. I must add here, once again, as mentioned in another post, that the cancer migration visible in short order on my neck likely has saved my life as I would otherwise not have noticed the outbreaks in my palate until it may have been much too late to as effectively treat.
The only thing I can add about sugar in my diet, from my perspective at least, is that sugar (like alcohol) is pretty much adding calories to my diet with no real healthy side effects. My relationship with sugar is restricting these empty calories so much as possible and not really an attack on sugar as a cancer cause. I'm on the other side of the mountain now, anyway, so many old behaviors that may have had detrimental outcomes for my overall health will be eliminated over time as a better way of living in general and not specific to my cancer diagnoses and after-care.
It is not my fault I have (or had) cancer, but, fact is, I must become more responsible for a healthier lifestyle now that I've passed these tests of fire and water, at least up to this point.
Here and now, I'm glad that my three primary doctors opted out of throat surgery. My gut reaction is that their decisions were right. It almost seems that that would have been akin to cutting off my nose to spite my face. But this and many other things are still a little up in the air. This whole thing has become an intense learning experience for me, to be sure.
Not that surgery might have caused my cancer to spread or grow, but the regimens of treatments applied seem to have been the right choice to me.
My self-image has definitely undergone change here. Formerly, I identified as an addiction survivor. Now I must add cancer survivor to my rostrum. I know the road ahead will include encounters in my workplace once I return there. Social interaction and media stigmatization will be front and center as I adapt to this life-changing series of occurrences.
Basically, accepting and acting upon my responsibility for my cancer recovery is on the surface not much different from the responsibilities I had had to learn to assume in my recovery from alcoholism and and addiction. Stigma, shame, guilt, social isolation and discrimination are all subtle force my recovery will have to learn to deal with. Self-doug and doubts of others loom ahead. I must keep my roadway clear.
My road ahead will likely include what are now unimaginable bumps in the road.
Picture me striding forward in all my recoveries, head held high as I strive to build and rebuild a new world for myself. Just as "nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more" applies to my alcoholism and addiction recovery, so too, the same thing goes for my cancer recovery moving forward.
Stigma, Myths and Lies have been largely expelled and dealt with. #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence.... that's the new platform upon which a new and better life for me will be constructed, deconstructed and reconstructed.
Structure is everything for me, now more that ever.
Strive on! I've said my piece and found some peace in the process.
Next on my agenda is to increase my writing and reaching out to help others.
As I've said before, helping others is the biggest win/win that I have ever known.
My most suitable closing here is a hearty thanks to all the people I've met on my many roads to recovery.
Find your path. Move forward. And MANY THANKS, AGAIN to each and all, before, during and after this life-enhancing experience.
Life is still so good. Now, more than ever!


("The Most Difficult Battles in Life Are Those We Fight Within." - Chinese Proverb on Pinterest)

*****
My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
*****
Strive on, Fellow Travelers! No matter what your fight and challenges! Help is out there.
*****
A Call to Arms!
No, not guns and ammunition. I'm talking human arms, embracing and carrying forward messages of Trust and Hope among all Cancer patients, their families, friends and co-workers. We need each others support. Don't isolate due to the ignorance of others. Share freely. Dispel myths. Move forward.
*****
Everybody's Recovering from Something. Get Help. Find Help. Help others.
*****
I am not a Hero, but on my good days at least, I am no longer a victim. I and you and us and we are more important than fear and doubt and prejudice and ignorance and a basketful of other evils.
In Sobriety, I have chosen to not be a victim of Cancer, Cancer's Pawn. I Can-Cer Vive (stolen from an origin unknown). I can survive Cancer because, in the end, I shall not have left me be it's Victim. I will be a Victor of Cancer, no matter the actually outcome.
Be a Victor. Live Victoriously!
*****
The 1st 22 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence posts are immediately below this Twenty-Third one on the link provided here (Reverse Chronological Order):
https://alldrinkingaside.blogspot.com
*****
(If you're already on the All Drinking Aside Blog page, consider this link part of my ridiculousness!)
*****
#SurviveCancer #SurviveAddiction #SurviveYourself
*****
Finally, whether it be Cancer, Addiction, Alcoholism, Recovery or All of the Above, "Hear Ye! Hear Ye... ! Read All About it, Wherever, Whenever, However!
*****
You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
*****
An Addiction Fiction & Autobiography-in-One / Check out the 30+ 5***** Star Reviews!
*****
TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!

07 July 2018

Go the Distance / Take the Time #22 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence


Up on around the bend, my #radiation, #chemo & #hydration therapies are nearing the end, but my struggles, convictions and fortitude can neither be tarried or rushed.
Physical, mental and emotional exhaustion are on my road ahead. Relief will come slowly, at best. I'm in it for the long haul. Six months to a year is not to be unexpected. I remember how long and tedious my alcoholism took me to fully recover (I have 14+ years of continuous sobriety. After an earthquake to my system such as these, the after-effects may be life-long and incorporated into my new sense of gratitude for having survived).
My ability to fight infection has been compromised and I will have to be vigilant in my daily living. Proceed with caution, no green light to recklessness not indicated. Care, self-care will become a permanent by-word. A devil-may-care attitude, forthrightly discarded.
Even after my sense of taste and appetite return, I may have to make permanent changes to my diet to ensure a future of good health. Many and most of these self-suggestions are obvious, but I will still have to remain focused. Focus on meditation and taking the time to brew the coffee and taste and smell the coffee have been taught to me after their absence. With my eyes closed, the only difference between a glass of water and a cup of iced coffee had been a barely discernible difference in mouth-feel, and trust me, I look forward to more fully appreciating all my senses.
My risk of recurrence is, of course, highest during the five-year period afterward, but here again, my gratitude has taken a definite upswing.
Hopefully, my cancer will have gone into remission and seriously, with a tinge of humor, I embrace my readmission to the human race. Just like my recovery from addiction, a vital sense of reconnection is just what the doctor ordered.
My physical, mental and emotional care has been supported my teams of doctors, nurses and other professional staff members. I am eternally grateful that what may have once been a death sentence has, through advancements in care unknown and not tallied by me, increased my life expectancy. Every plus in medical science has provided me with hope for a brighter future (Gratitude, again).
My radiation therapy is likely a success, exceeding the 95 percentile. I'm told by the staff that my burns from radiation will subside in due course, but that I must continue with my recommended skin-care regimen for some time to come.
Caring for myself must become a habit. Neglect is off the table. In my career alcoholic days (and years) self-care, medical and dental care, diet, etc., all took a back seat to the next drink or drug. Cancer has refreshed my memory of the importance of health maintenance. I cannot help others if I cannot first help myself. This and other important lessons are still being absorbed by me. In fact, my recovery from addiction and alcoholism have definitely been reinforced by my cancer survivorship.
Some changes to my body, lifestyle and outlook rightfully may be permanent. I will have to man-up and play the ball where it lies. Even little cheats ultimately would be cheating myself.
My body will need time to repair.
I must be ready to Go the Distance / Take the Time!
My next step (or soon to be next step) is to focus my attention to helping others. I know of no better win/win situation.
Additional life lessons will hopefully be included in future posts.
A final salute to Gratitude is needed here. So, Have a Grateful :-) Day, y'all!
*****
My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
*****
"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more." That attitude carries over into my cancer fight. Cancer matters more. Fighting cancer means more. My life IS more, no matter how all of this turns out.
Strive on, Fellow Travelers! No matter what your fight and challenges! Help is out there.
*****
A Call to Arms!
No, not guns and ammunition. I'm talking human arms, embracing and carrying forward messages of Trust and Hope among all Cancer patients, their families, friends and co-workers. We need each others support. Don't isolate due to the ignorance of others. Share freely. Dispel myths. Move forward.
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Everybody's Recovering from Something. Get Help. Find Help. Help others.
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I am not a Hero, but on my good days at least, I am no longer a victim. I and you and us and we are more important than fear and doubt and prejudice and ignorance and a basketful of other evils.
In Sobriety, I have chosen to not be a victim of Cancer, Cancer's Pawn. I Can-Cer Vive (stolen from an origin unknown). I can survive Cancer because, in the end, I shall not have left me be it's Victim. I will be a Victor of Cancer, no matter the actually outcome.
Be a Victor. Live Victoriously!

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The 1st 21 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence posts are immediately below this Twenty-Second one on the link provided here (Reverse Chronological Order):
https://alldrinkingaside.blogspot.com
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(If you're already on the All Drinking Aside Blog page, consider this link part of my ridiculousness!)
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#SurviveCancer #SurviveAddiction #SurviveYourself
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Finally, whether it be Cancer, Addiction, Alcoholism, Recovery or All of the Above, "Hear Ye! Hear Ye... ! Read All About it, Wherever, Whenever, However!
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You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
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An Addiction Fiction & Autobiography-in-One / Check out the 30+ 5***** Star Reviews!
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TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!