20 May 2018

ADDICTION = Impatience \ RECOVERY = Impatience Decelerated


SLOW DOWN....Because if you haven't slowed down, you're still living in addiction, whether or not your drug of choice still inhabits every cell of your body, whether or not your mind is still in the Land of More.
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(Surimi) [sums it up well, speaking to Vatchi (and Sotto, easily within earshot)]: Vicious cycles. Vicious circles. No vicious virtue.... You're right, Vatchi. Slow down, Jim. Impatience. If there's one character defect I've seen in most, if not every addict and alcoholic, it's impatience. Always waiting for and wanting the next hit, the next drink. The waiting and wanting have become character traits that have not yet stopped, even after the drinking and drugging stops. The waiting and wanting continue. It takes time to decelerate.
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SLOW DOWN....Because if you haven't slowed down, you're still living in addiction, whether or not your drug of choice still inhabits every cell of your body, whether or not your mind is still in the Land of More....
Be still your beating heart. Recovery is here... , is now....
SLOW DOWNSLOW DOWN... !!! (slow down.... )


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"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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16 May 2018

A World Away / A World Between... Insanity & Serenity


Bear with me.
This post may require heavy lifting. Intuition and mental presence join hands here.
Take these two quotes, a Chapter apart, taken completely out of context:
First, separately:
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"In quarreling, the truth is always lost." - Publilius Syrus, 1st century B.C., quote cited in Ch. 80, "My Second Insanity," All Drinking Aside
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"Eventually the puking stops. But the drinking doesn't stop." - Ch. 81, "Empty Bottles and Refillable Pain," All Drinking Aside
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Now. Intentionally fragmented. And together:
"... the truth is always lost" when "... the drinking doesn't stop."
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A world away, that drinking game, that world my life became.
There is a world between Addiction's Insanity and the Serenity that Recovery will become.
Piece together peace. You will not miss what it replaced. Welcome back to the human race.
Don't quarrel with a drink. Walk out.
We wouldn't want the puking back again, now, would we?
The truth is always lost when the drinking does not stop...


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"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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15 May 2018

As a Prelude to Chemo & Radiation, I Rediscovered this:


This simple excerpt sums up my feelings, felt deeply, brought to the surface. Like enduring recovery, it's almost self-explanatory, best felt and shared with knowing looks and quiet, understanding nods:

(Sotto): What has not died, what has survived, is a life to be lived more fully, Vatchi. I will give this one to Jim. I will go so far as to affirm his sobriety. He has become more than sober. Not a dry drunk. Alive and sober, this different kind of more, in absence of alcohol. More. This more. Sober.
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Tomorrow, I attend a Radiation Therapy Class. Then, starting Monday, 7 weeks of chemo and radiation.
Recovery has prepared me to face this, that, anything, stronger, belonging, grateful.
The only thing addiction prepared me for is recovery.


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"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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05 May 2018

"... sex with a virgin is a sure cure for AIDS... " and Alcohol... ?


"At one time (for real, for real) it was believed by many that sex with a virgin is a sure cure for AIDS, or so some such rumors spread. Turned out that it didn't stop AIDS. Didn't cure AIDS. But it did do one hell of a job of spreading AIDS. And fear. And violence against women. 'Here, this will cure what ails you,' the bartender says. Turns out drinking alcohol will not cure an alcoholic.
"Today I must insist on abstinence. A drink would be violence against myself. (Why doesn't he just stop?")
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Stigma thrives on ignorance and spreads like wildfire.
Change is slow and progressive like the addictions it replaces.
Life is good. The fire from within sustains me. Shared courage strengthens me.
"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
My life is better without the drink. Simple (after a million permutations).
Live and learn. I did not drink today.


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