09 July 2018

CANCER: S.M.L. (Stigma, Myths & Lies) #23 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence


Here I stand, nearly finished with all the chemotherapy, radiation and hydration therapies and yes, all or most of my side-effects symptoms should begin to subside, but, trust me, much of this has been unforeseen and unexpected.
Stigma, Myths and Lies will likely continue following me like a slug. Certainly, positive behaviors on my part are 'de rigueur' to lessen the possibilities for a recurrence of cancer. My attitude is important. Now on the other side of treatments, my cancer is no longer in the category of a fight I have to win, which had sort of been my attitude at first. That evolved into less doubt and more trust in the procedures and knowledge of my doctors and other care-givers.
One of the biggest myths, which I intuitively did seem to get is that the types and numbers of different cancers and their prescribed forms of treatment vary to the extreme in location in the body, severity of diagnosis and treatment regimens tailored to the strengths and weaknesses of the patients.
In short, cancer is truly not one simple little disease. It covers spectrums still unimaginable to me. The cause/causes of my cancer seem almost inconsequential after the fact. I was not doomed to get cancer and there may have indeed been little I could have done up to the point of diagnosis to prevent its onslaught. But now that treatments at my level of care have subsided, it's up to me to eat and exercise to help aftercare improve as quickly as possible. Even my hereditary cancer history doesn't do much to point blame my way.
Blaming my parents more than dangerous behaviors not inherited, such as alcohol and tobacco addiction isn't really an answer for me either. From a personal perspective, cause and blame have been removed from my vocabulary. Environmental toxins are my personal best guess. We live in a world poisoned by the thousands of chemicals in our environment everywhere. Earth, at least the urban world I live in is certainly no Garden of Eden.
Contrary to my initial sense of "Oh, boy, I've got cancer. Print up the death notices. Write your will. Kiss your ass good-bye" have quickly dissipated.
I remember being told that sugar is a super food to cancer, at least in the tracer chemicals used in the full-body scan images used in the preliminary looks at my hard and soft palates and the outpost of cancer which had migrated to my neck. I must add here, once again, as mentioned in another post, that the cancer migration visible in short order on my neck likely has saved my life as I would otherwise not have noticed the outbreaks in my palate until it may have been much too late to as effectively treat.
The only thing I can add about sugar in my diet, from my perspective at least, is that sugar (like alcohol) is pretty much adding calories to my diet with no real healthy side effects. My relationship with sugar is restricting these empty calories so much as possible and not really an attack on sugar as a cancer cause. I'm on the other side of the mountain now, anyway, so many old behaviors that may have had detrimental outcomes for my overall health will be eliminated over time as a better way of living in general and not specific to my cancer diagnoses and after-care.
It is not my fault I have (or had) cancer, but, fact is, I must become more responsible for a healthier lifestyle now that I've passed these tests of fire and water, at least up to this point.
Here and now, I'm glad that my three primary doctors opted out of throat surgery. My gut reaction is that their decisions were right. It almost seems that that would have been akin to cutting off my nose to spite my face. But this and many other things are still a little up in the air. This whole thing has become an intense learning experience for me, to be sure.
Not that surgery might have caused my cancer to spread or grow, but the regimens of treatments applied seem to have been the right choice to me.
My self-image has definitely undergone change here. Formerly, I identified as an addiction survivor. Now I must add cancer survivor to my rostrum. I know the road ahead will include encounters in my workplace once I return there. Social interaction and media stigmatization will be front and center as I adapt to this life-changing series of occurrences.
Basically, accepting and acting upon my responsibility for my cancer recovery is on the surface not much different from the responsibilities I had had to learn to assume in my recovery from alcoholism and and addiction. Stigma, shame, guilt, social isolation and discrimination are all subtle force my recovery will have to learn to deal with. Self-doug and doubts of others loom ahead. I must keep my roadway clear.
My road ahead will likely include what are now unimaginable bumps in the road.
Picture me striding forward in all my recoveries, head held high as I strive to build and rebuild a new world for myself. Just as "nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more" applies to my alcoholism and addiction recovery, so too, the same thing goes for my cancer recovery moving forward.
Stigma, Myths and Lies have been largely expelled and dealt with. #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence.... that's the new platform upon which a new and better life for me will be constructed, deconstructed and reconstructed.
Structure is everything for me, now more that ever.
Strive on! I've said my piece and found some peace in the process.
Next on my agenda is to increase my writing and reaching out to help others.
As I've said before, helping others is the biggest win/win that I have ever known.
My most suitable closing here is a hearty thanks to all the people I've met on my many roads to recovery.
Find your path. Move forward. And MANY THANKS, AGAIN to each and all, before, during and after this life-enhancing experience.
Life is still so good. Now, more than ever!


("The Most Difficult Battles in Life Are Those We Fight Within." - Chinese Proverb on Pinterest)

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