24 July 2018

Cancer Post (#25 of 50) "Cancer Hangs Over Me"


PLEASE NOTE: Everybody's recovering from something, whether it be alcoholism, addiction or cancer. If not you, then somebody you know. At the very least, we are all recovering from others and from ourselves.
I awoke from a dream, more a nightmare, really, akin to the drunk dreams I sometimes still occasionally experience. Just as recovery from alcoholism and addiction have become part of my permanent landscape in recovery, so too, cancer has now become a permanent fixture in my life. In both cases, relapse and recurrence are a forever possibility, both best dealt with one day at a time (in their many permutations).
This 25th of an anticipated 50 Cancer Recovery-Related Posts is unlike all the others (a link to all 25 posts thus far is at the bottom). It is expressed in verse because it best captures the disjointed emotions related to facing many of my life's inevitabilities and the realization that I have learned to remain strong, to adjust my sails.
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"Cancer Hangs Over Me"

Kittens and puppies is how it will start.

Buried, I will be
(I will be buried)
by some third shoe
(Daddy, I'm already dead).

Addiction Affliction was thrown at me from across the room.
Then Cancer, when Cancer, then Cancer came,
The first pelt of rain.

This, a nightmare
(You know it is),
is happening to you
(Has happened. Who?).

Forever
(Before the first ever)
Cancer hangs over me.
Waiting for some third shoe to drop.

Cancer now is a part of my life
(Is my life)
like Addiction's trail so unmercifully long had become.

The first few drops came as kittens and puppies.
Then the rain made a hard right turn,
Now cats and dogs, raining cats and dogs.
The shoes came along, galoshes and boots,
knocked me to the ground, beaten and bruised.

Be sure, this is a dream and I will survive this, too.
But be sure, too,
I am a shoe,
weather-beaten,
worn....

I am a shoe.

(Photo Credit: Arizona Daily Star on Pinterest)
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My continuing Recovery from Alcoholism has given me tools, hope, a positive attitude.
I have a leg up on Cancer that I wouldn't have had minus my addiction recovery.
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Strive on, Fellow Travelers! No matter what your fight and challenges! Help is out there.
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A Call to Arms!
No, not guns and ammunition. I'm talking human arms, embracing and carrying forward messages of Trust and Hope among all Cancer patients, their families, friends and co-workers. We need each others support. Don't isolate due to the ignorance of others. Share freely. Dispel myths. Move forward.
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Everybody's Recovering from Something. Get Help. Find Help. Help others.
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I am not a Hero, but on my good days at least, I am no longer a victim. I and you and us and we are more important than fear and doubt and prejudice and ignorance and a basketful of other evils.
In Sobriety, I have chosen to not be a victim of Cancer, Cancer's Pawn. I Can-Cer Vive (stolen from an origin unknown). I can survive Cancer because, in the end, I shall not have left me be it's Victim. I will be a Victor of Cancer, no matter the actually outcome.
Be a Victor. Live Victoriously!
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The 1st 24 (of 50) #Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence posts are immediately below this Twenty-Fifth one on the link provided here (Reverse Chronological Order):
https://alldrinkingaside.blogspot.com
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(If you're already on the All Drinking Aside Blog page, consider this link part of my ridiculousness!)
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#SurviveCancer #SurviveAddiction #SurviveYourself
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Finally, whether it be Cancer, Addiction, Alcoholism, Recovery or All of the Above, "Hear Ye! Hear Ye... ! Read All About it, Wherever, Whenever, However!
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You may also wish to Explore ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal, by the same author:
http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
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TAKE C.A.R.E. (#Cancer #Addiction #Recovery #Emergence)!!!


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