09 May 2018

WARNING: CONTAINS F-Bombs ("Moonshine trumps Sunshine")


"It was alcohol, that vulture, that picked my bones clean." - It was that sentence that had me stop and backtrack to the beginning of this excerpt.
Normally, I don't post anything with curse words. WARNING: The excerpt below CONTAINS  a few F-Bombs. Stop reading now if that offends you. And definitely don't read my book. It contains some adult language where appropriate. Maybe 20, but who's counting... ?
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"They called me 'Rusty' because I drank Rusty Nails. They called me 'Rusty' because that is what I was. I was my drink. And when you are your drink, you are nothing. Fuck you and give me another drink. Moonshine trumps sunshine. Drink until I black out. Drunk until I pass out. Fuck. Any shelf. Any shelf. Fuck.

(Vatchi): Smoke and mirrors. Snakes and ladders. What does it matter, Sotto? Jesus walked on water. Jim walked on liquor and the illusion fell through. And Jim fell through. Fell through. Through. Overly confident, overtly confident. Confidence man. Con man. He fooled most people for a long, long time and then finally, only himself. And then and then and then nothing and no one, not even himself. Jim's crash to the bottom can be easily forgotten. He had humility. There. At his bottom. Can he stay humble as his competence at living sober increases? Competence trumps confidence. Place your bets. The chips are down. Way down.

My advertising career and my bartending career had similarities. Selling the dream. Selling the dream. With advertising, I sold the dream through the print, radio and television ads I created and produced. With bartending, I sold the dream through Johnny Walker, bar snacks and shot glasses. I could sell what I didn't believe in (advertising), but what I did believe in (alcohol), sold me. Our consumer culture did not consume me. It was alcohol, that vulture, that picked my bones clean."
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Well, there you have it.
The pictured quote expresses well the bottom line this excerpt leaves me feeling.
I'm no longer reeling. I'm real. It's real. Recovery has become me.
"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."


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The passage in quotes is excerpted from ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction and Reconstruction of An Alcoholic Animal: http://amzn.to/1bX6JyO
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