17 January 2018

TRUTH against POWER, #Recovery over #Addiction (My Last Relapse)


I did not know while it was happening that my last relapse, like an Aesop's fable, was a living example of an animal acting badly who would learn a valuable lesson through the action of the story. It helps to show why Animal became a necessary part of my book's sub-title (ALL DRINKING ASIDE: The Destruction, Deconstruction & Reconstruction of an Alcoholic Animal). Please, allow yourself the pleasure of picturing the speaker as an animal in the alcoholic maze known as addiction, an animal who could not find his own truth, merely the truth of addiction's power. 
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"What I did not know, when I made the decision to drink away my last thirty-five dollars over this four day period, was that my new landlord had been out of the country and that all the weekly rent checks I had been giving his secretary sat undeposited in his desk drawer. 
By the second day I had spent the entire thirty-five dollars and wondered if between loose change lying around my room and whatever was left in my bank account I might be able to buy one more bottle of vodka (even a half pint would have to do) before straightening out and resuming my sobriety (Who would know?). 
Long story short: I called the bank's automatic teller to find my balance and as I sat there drunk I heard that I how had several hundred dollars in my account due to my undeposited rent checks…
If you’re a drunk like me, you know what happened next. I went on a bender, one ATM cash withdrawal after the other, until all the well-intentioned rent money was spent and I ended up in the hospital.
Yada. Yada. Yada. Same old story. So much for some new miracle of control."
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TRUTH against POWER, #Recovery over #Addiction, these were the morsels remaining when this animal emerged from the alcoholic maze known as addiction, an animal who could not find his own truth, merely the truth of addiction's power, until Recovery became his way of life.
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"Nothing matters more than that we remain sober because when we remain sober everything matters more."
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#Alcoholism #Addiction #Recovery
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